Four days late, and I honestly remembered yesterday that I had missed the 20th of the month, well no harm done. The most news worthy announcement is that I feel like I’ve reached the point that my tranisition (ie hrt/rle) has become a simple part of my life, which brings nothing new to my daily life anymore. Well not exactly nothing, because I still have laser hair removal apointments ahead of me which will make a difference. The effect of hormone treatment is unnoticable by now, changes are too slow to notice, so sadly enough there’s nothing to tell about what it does to my body, not now, and probably not for at least the next six months.
Like in many previous posts which hadn’t much to tell you on bodily developments there are still enough thing to tell about. For instance, I have also reached the point that I’m satisfied with the way I look. Sure some days my hair gets all fluffy, which I am not fond of, but overall my looks don’t treat my ego like shit, it even gets pampered sometimes. Quite some credit goes to the laser hair removal, for instance I don’t have any visible beard shadow anymore. Shaving got easier, with less hair, it costs me less time, although I still shave daily, but after another two treatments that will probably be a done deal too. I can’t point other sources to give credit that easily, but it could also be that I’ve been watching The L word season 4 last few weeks. In a certain way watching those women it gives me a feeling of belonging, which boosts my ego. Watching attractive lesbians makes me feel like I’m an attractive lesbian too, I’m not the person to go tell myself I’m unattractive just because I’m single. I’ve always been a person whom carried with herself and now that pride gets bigger with feeling beautiful, and I am 75% sure that there’s someone out there whom thinks I’m attractive. Well it is a mere feeling, but my senses can’t be that wrong, I haven’t even purposely flirted with her, but somehow she gives me the feeling she finds me attractive. If that’s the case with her, then there can be numerous other women whom can find me attrative. I like where this reasoning is going…hahaha…o sure, there are lesbian women for whom I’m a no go, but that’s their shortcoming, and when did I say I fall for every woman?
Oh well, time to move to an other topic, like… uh… hmm… how much I like Cat Davis’ Cat on the prowl, on afterellen.com, or how I think Jenny sucked in season 4 from the point her Lez Girls was her big thing, or how I’ve already dreamt twice about Jessie’s arrival here on my doorsteps so to say (Jessie, my dearest Chiq-ago girl, love her).
True this next week is going to be exciting, tomorrow there’s Christmas at my parents, I’m going to make the soup, friday back home again I’ll spend the day with a friend, going to a big glbt Christmas party at night with her and some others, on Saturday.. uh..I’ll be sleeping and doing nothing special, Sunday will be my big cleaning day to prepare for Jessie’s arrival (although I should be cleaning either way, certain things have been neglected a little to a lot), Monday the mattrass will arrive (brought by my parents) because I can’t let Jessie sleep on my couch for more than two nights, Tuesday is Jessie’s day of arrival, going to Amsterdam, maybe visiting some people, Wednesday is the last day of 2009, anyone knows what that means.
I don’t know if I’ll be posting any lists this year, or any posts at all for the next 3 weeks, have been thinking about giving this blog some more structure, thoughts about that will be worked out to something beautiful I can show around as of (lets say) Febraury!
Have a wonderful Christmas and best wishes for that year ahead of us, called 2009!
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