I can hardly say that I’m an anonymous user of the internet, not only do I have this weblog, I also have a myspace, a facebook, and a last.fm account, and apart from facebook the other three are findable when you google for ‘mutezukini’. Now don’t take the effort to google them, because you can just as easily click the links in the category Sophie Elsewhere. People who don’t know about my transsexuality, but do know my (I’ll call it a) pseudonym will easily find this blog and find out. There are as far as I know no people, whom I know, who don’t know about my transsexuality. Though the internet does hand me the oppotunity to keep my situation from someone (initially), this has it’s advantages I’m aware of that. The disadvantage is though that at this stage I won’t be able to develop such online contact to a similar offline contact. My current attitude towards this that I disclose my situation at the second opportunity. The reason behind this is that if the person would meet me offline for the first time she/he would with the probability of probably 90% get that I’m not born female. This is something I can’t prevent now, and also won’t deny, so why should online contact be radically different from offline contact in that sense. The honesty of my appearance replaced by the honesty of my words. In both situations the recipient of the information that I’m transsexual hasn’t asked to get that information, in the first case though he/she finds out herself with the help of her/his senses, in the second case those senses are very much reduced because the information is merely words and not a full appearance with the addition of experiencing my personality. So I do believe though that my appearance has a totally different impact than my words, this is what troubles me. I don’t know what the effect of this difference is on the person who gets the words, opposed to that I have enough experience of knowing the real-life reaction of people I meet offline. So I’d like to know if I should handle this different, especailly if I want the online contact to develop into offline contact. Any hints, opinions, ideas are welcome. A bit feedback on my postings here are welcome, at least if you’re able to follow my line of thought, which is sometimes probably a bit difficult.

Why did I bring this up? Well I posted a kind of contact-add (I’m looking for a buddy who’ll accompany me to concerts) at a gay/lesbian/bi-website for youth and young adults, it’s part of a magazine, and I got a reaction to my post there which didn’t mention genderqueerness, but I did mention it in my reply to her. She hasn’t responded yet, so I’m a bit doubtfull if I was right at mentioning it this soon.