He was wrong! Though that might be too harsh, my experience is more positive than what he made me expect. So what is this about? It’s about the hair on my head, the hair thought I had lost and the hair that returned. Due to the fact that testosterone had run through my body until age 25, I had a diminished amount of hair on my head. This was one of the things physical developments which was worrying me most before I started hormones. I knew it would happen before it began happening, because my uncles of both sides and my dad are the living proof of what my genes and the testosterone would do to the hair on my head.
I had tried to do something about it since 2005, but I wasn’t bold enough to do something about the slow action of my physician here in Nijmegen and the coordinator of the Genderteam in Nijmegen. Whom were supposed to contact eachother about it in 2006, but they failed multiple times. So in October 2007 when I started hormone treatment nothing had been done about my hairloss and I hadn’t dared to take a look at the back of my head (with two mirrors (one on the wall other in my hand)) for 6 months. Six months earlier looking at it made me really sad and angry, I was thinking of wearing a wig as soon as I started my RLT. It was that bad….because I simply don’t like wigs, I would be wearing it as a last resort.
I’m very happy though that this last resort doesn’t seem to be necessary now the hormones have kicked out the testosterone. When I had my first appointment with my endo I asked about what the effect of the hormone treatment would be on my baldness. He said that it would only reverse what I had lost in the last three months, at least that was his experience. This didn’t really make me go ‘wow I’m saved‘, not at all, because already 6 months ago my hairloss had thinned out my hair visably and I had a clear (though not yet huge) balding spot on the back of my head. It probably got worse in those six months up til October, when showering I could feel the water going over the bare skin of my bald spot. Going bald had been depressing me for almost 5 years, and the idea that I wouldn’t get much hair back didn’t make me feel happier. The effect of my hormone treatment on my hair growth has happily surprised me, seriously though it took me until less than a month ago when I again looked at the back of my head. Three months into RLT I had luckily not changed my hairdo from what it was before, which was quite well improvised to hide my hairloss. If I had gone to wear a wig I had probably cut my hair short, I’m happy I haven’t done that. The hormone treatment gave me back much more hair than my endo had predicted, not only wasn’t I going bald anymore, I didn’t have the balding spot anymore. I now have short new hair growing where I once felt my bare skin. If it’ll grow thick enough to look normal is still a possibility I think is feasable. This doesn’t look bald in any way, does it? I was really thrilled to see the back of my head, a feeling which couldn’t have been much more different from what I felt early 2007. There’s one little issue though. The hair I hadn’t lost before October 2007 lies on my shoulders when worn loose. This means it’ll still take me at least 2 years before I can really profit from my new found hairyness on my head. With the joy of having this much hair on my head again, I’ll easily survive that! Now I only don’t need to forget to tell my endo and therapist (though they are both not the same ones as I had late last year), I do feel I have to share it with them, which I forgot last week, like I’m sharing this on here! So much happyness about a bit of hair, my world is so weird, and I’m glad for it!