So she finally responded, calling herself cowardess for not responding for so long. And I agree, it was cowardess of her. If I am that honest to tell her of my insecurity towards the possibilities for developing a friendship with her, then she doesn’t respond to that for over a month, then indeed she is cowardess. Ow but my opinion shocked her, and even hurt her, probably because I was a bit vague regarding my opinion about her social life. My first conclusion to this is that if I meant so little to her, because we hardly know eachother yet, then my words wouldn’t in any way could have hurt her, or she takes herself much too serious and doesn’t care if she might have misunderstood my words! So I was that kind without her asking to elaborate on my previous vague opinion as well as what I thought I had explained clearly about my own insecurity. I might have relieved her from her shock and pain, so she should be glad I responded again. On the other hand her response on what I first wrote, besides mentioning her shock and pain, was examplary of selective reading, an unability to attempt to fully understand someone elses words, making her response full of false presumptions and dishonest conclusions. Her response was clear though, and I could imagine someone wouldn’t fully understand my words as I have meant them to be read, so I apoligized to a degree. For what it’s worth she doesn’t need to feel sorry about her response, and I don’t give a damn anymore about this whole story. I move on and will find my friends somewhere else, people who aren’t too busy to spend time with someone who’s willing to have a good time with them, people who don’t tell me they can never meet, people whom also take the initiative to meet up, and whom aren’t scared by my honesty, and don’t make dishonest presumptions about how I think about a friendship.
Anne can go have her dull life with her boyfriend and friends, whom all stuck with her after highschool only because they all got to study in the same city. She is socially spoiled, that’s my opinion, there are people like me whom really need to put an effort in having a satisfying social life, normally it isn’t noticeable how much a potential friendship already means to me, and thus can’t cause any problems, if it were even a problem for someone else. Well for Anne it was a problem to see how much I already mentally invested in our friendship, especially by putting her own false interpretation on my opinion and feelings. I think I was too kind to respond again, but I’m not someone whom likes to be left misunderstood. Goodbye Anne, this is closure, I will spend my time on people whom deserve it, you are now officialy passé!