Six mois d’hormones

Today exactly half a year ago I started with my hormone therapy, so I actually had something to celebrate, but I didn’t get to that, but I did get to writing my update .

Thursday I went for my second once-every-three-months appointment with my endocrinologist and this time the first time with my new gender therapist. Each appointment with an endo was with a different person, so on thursday I had a younger woman asking me a few questions measuring blood pressure, my weight and for some unparticular reason also my lenght. She was quite kind, so I hope to have her at least one of the next appointments. Then after that I could go straight away to my new gender therapist. She was well prepared, had probably read my entire file twice and she’d talked about me with my previous therapist, whom had been my therapist since June 2005. So we started of almost right where stopped last visit to my former gender therapist. I shared the things which bothered me and the things which made me feel more and more comfortable with myself and my surroundings. All in all, I have no reason to be displeased with my new therapist, she’s probably some years older than the other one, but she’s youthful and knows what she wants to ask me. In that sense she as just a little bit more straight forward, but I don’t mind, I’m looking forward to talking about myself more often. It won’t be as often as I’ve spoken with the previous one, but still worth to look forward too.
While I’m writing this here I feel an odd kind of mixture of tiredness and being made love with (at least it comes close to that feeling), I presume I just need to get me something to drink, not that this is an unpleasant feeling, but I need to keep focused to tell you about everything else .
So let me get to what the hormones been doing with me this past month, starting with that gorgious body of mine . I have come to acknowledge that my lips got a little bit fuller, which is good, makes them more kissable ..*haha*.. so why would I complain about that. Also I went to see how my figure has changed by making a full body picture with my webcam from behind, a picture which is of course kept very private. And what really struck me was that my outer thighs right where my butt is at its widest are almost as wide as my shoulders, so I’m really really happy about that. I don’t know how my figure is going to develop further on, but I suppose not much, at least not if I didn’t gain weight, which is not something I’m really striving for. I already gained enough, even lost some weight again, but I’m okay with the weight I have now. Anything else on my body still changing? Well of course, my breast growth continues slowly but steadily. The development is less than an inch compared to three months ago, but for some reason I am believed to fit a 38B bra now, oh well I promised not to give any figures unitl the 9 month update so I’ll refrain myself from that . They at least got more rounded, though that went along with a few weeks of more sensitiveness and sometimes painful pinches, all worth the progress!
Thus yeah my figure has clearly gotten more feminine, the sad thing is is that my body hair doesn’t seem to agree with that and still grows, though not as much as before hormone therapy, on places where every woman would love to be clean of body hair.
Despite the hair issues bothering me I still have the hair on my head issue pleasing me very much… I realy can’t wait for the day that it’s long enough to get myself those pretty bangs.
So as I said to my new gender therapist, I habe absolutely become more confident these past few months, some things are becoming more normal to do and less difficult to handle. There is still a long way to go, the facial hair needs to go, the voice needs improvement, the body hair needs to f*ck off, the adam’s apple needs a shave, my breasts wouldn’t mind to be one cup-size bigger, and then there’s that issue between my legs which needs to be reshaped and last but not least I’m still looking for the love of my life… in the longer run she’ll probably be there… I’m sure of it, just like all these other issues will get solved.

ah my future in this perspective, why would I worry? ….oh yeah, finishing my study and getting a job and a house to live in… hmm… well that’s something entirely different