Moodswings, in my opinion I didn’t have them due to the hormones until half an hour ago. I was worried about a hole right next to the road, across my apartment, because I fear it’s caused by a waterleak. Can explain it in more detail but that’s not of importance now. So I called my dad who works at the regional watersupply company, and before I knew I got all tensed. I got more tensed than I was when I first discovered this hole and checked it out, I was like okay it’s a hole probably caused by a waterleak. It didn’t look like it was getting bigger so I was simply worried, not tensed. There on the phone for a reason which normally doesn’t really get me tensed I got tensed. I do not know if this is considered a moodswing, but it freaky to me for sure. Now I have been more alert on threats to my living space since a there was a nightly break-in at a neighbouring apartment in my hallway while I was home, asleep. This is something different from being afraid having my stuff being stolen, this is being afraid that a huge whole will swallow a garabage truck right in front of my window. Something which will surely shock me. I know how to control my emotions normally but it’s getting harder, today when the start of 3 days of mourning for the dead of the earthquake in China was in the news I was just one bit away of sobbing over my bowl of rice. I used to grieve on the inside about such tragic things, but I think this is starting to change now. Along with having more trouble to keep my emotions in I might have moodswings more easily too. I don’t like being tensed like I was an hour ago, especially not when it grapples me. I treasure my emotional stability. I do, but maybe I should also start treasuring being able to show more of my emotions too. Though I’d rather not have to treasure the moodswings.