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Yesterday I went out at about 11pm in the hopes to find some friends to hang out with in the city. Actually my only hope was one person, but she had to work until midnight at the restaurant she works, so I first went to check up on her if she would indeed be done at midnight. She wasn’t, because she was asked by her boss to work until closing time, about 3.30am. That left me without anyone quite familiar to hang out with. Though it seemed there was some hope, somebody I didn’t really know that well, but had met a few times before suddenly stood before me. And so I caught up with her and sat and stood at various spots near the Mets, a queer cafe, where quite a crowd was outside and an attempt to a nice night out got shape. I talked with a few of her friends, that’s what started it, and eventually more people came to form a group that went into the Mets to dance and have fun.
At first it was quite packed inside the Mets and I only danced a bit, talked a bit as far as possible with the volume of the music. I do have to mention that as far as I know none of those girls I was with (all besides one lesbians) were familiar with the fact of me being a transwoman. Then when the night continued it got less packed at the Mets and so there was more space to dance and to get eye contact with attractive girls around me. So I had a few eye contacts with different girls, which still is interesting to have knowing my situation a year ago. At one point that evening a new song had kicked in and I had just made some dancing moves to that song, then out of nowhere one of the girls I only had short eye contact with already minutes and minutes before stood behind me and put her arm around me, which caught me by surprise. So I was more shocked than excited, and she noticed that quite fast and went back to dance with her friends. I was even too shocked to look behind me and make decent eye contact with her then and there. One or two songs later I did and she obviously seeked eye contact with me there too. I’m quite sure that if it weren’t for my physical obstructions due to the stadium of my transition I would have gotten more out of it then eye contact. She was a very attractive girl, even taller then me, though the vibe I got from her character was a bit of a bitchy one. Nonetheless, an attractive woman thought I was attractive and would probably have loved to have some fun with me including at least some kissing. Why else would she’d been so occupied with me.
Having other girls flirt with me obviously isn’t an incident, because not only wasn’t she the only one willing to catch my eye, catching the eye of an other girl happened before like described in a previous post. I am now more than ever convinced that I can be seen as an attractive woman, I might even be so bold to say that I’m an attractive woman, though I do lack certain physical aspects in my own perception of attractiveness. This experience of last night only makes me more confident of myself and more determent to get the physical obstructions dealt with. I suppose will have to let some fun slip through my fingers until at least the issue of facial hair has been taken care of. Luckily I can be very patient, I also need to work on my own skills to deal with flirting girls. The shock-tactic isn’t one that’ll bring me any succes :P .

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